Gangsterism :S

     After i watch the 1990s movie series of "Gu Wak Zai", it makes me recapturing all those years in my 2ndary skul life dat involves violence n gambling, as a skul full of rich n (not so poor) students, gambling in our skul r particulary outstanding, mayb more outstanding den our results.

     However, bcoz of my skul is n stil the most popular skul at Butterworth, all dis kind of news r cover up n all negativ issues r dealt undertable. i can quite rmb my 1st n only dai lou selling sextapes in our Male toilet == its actually quite embarrasing but luckily he din force me 2 sell 2gether!!!

     The violence in our skul r so terrible dat the management set-up a CCTV in our MALE TOILET!!! i can said dat mayb less den 5 skuls in Malaysia has CCTV in male toilet. the most terrible students shud b the batch which r 1 year older den me, n after me i ting the violence n gambling has changed 2 gambling n sex scandals!!!

     i rmb last year my skul hav a couple r caught naked in our Form 6 classes, OMG!!! y do it at skul??? i rily cant bliv got ppl do dis ting at skul, i heard my seniors done it b4 but i alwiz tot it was like warm up rather den a HOMERUN!!!

     Gambling is 1 of the most infamous Chinese culture, i can said most chinese (90%) will / does gamble. i gamble on football matches since form 1, the 2002 World Cup anibody??? after a long n suffering losing period, we all noe dat players r alwiz on a losing side unless we can b host, so on 2006 i decided (n hav the guts) to b a bookie n tk up all the bets frm my skul. can u imagine frm a rm500 angpao n earn until rm20k of cash in a plastic folder in less den 2 years?

     n dats jz the sum after i spend whole lot on burning money (especially on Motorola). but ppl said wut u do define wut a person u r, n earning dis kinda money doesnt make urself ani proud. Arrogance n greedy, i lived dis kinda life for 3 years, u wil never understand how easy ppl make money frm gambling n drug trafficking unless u try. i never involve in ani drugs deal in my skul, but dat doesnt make me ani better den those who does. how many ppl has lose n bcum a gambler bcoz of me?

     n the worse part is i din feel guilty, bcoz until 2day i stil use 1 same reason 2 cover my guilt, dat i'd never ask dem 2 bet, all of dem come 2 me via their fren, wen ppl want 2 bet, dey will find a way 2 bet, n dis is y gambling wil never end in my skul.

     b a good man usually means be a poor man as well, 2 success sumtimes ppl hav 2 do sumting dat r not morale but i ting wen a large sum of money / benefits involved, most ppl does betrayed demselves. Eri1 n eriting has a price, i alwiz withold dis belief, 4 it is universally true.

     Eri1 wants 2 be a better person, n I'm trying hard not 2 bcum wat i am last time, stop betting for 2 years but stil fighting hard 2 get rid of it, money does make ppl crazy :S