生日快乐！Happy Birthday!

     its March 30th, happy birthday to you! i starting dis post in chinese, but my pinyin rily sucks since form 6, so i  delete the chinese words n start again wif english instead ==

     6 years passed, n u must b very happy at Taiwan, after so long ad stil havent bac Malaysia. wish u were here during CNY, we all miss u alot! i'd lost ur Taiwan number :( so jz wish u on FB. 

     For me, wishing bday by SMS or bday card is best, coz dats mean u rily rmb dat person bday, FB 1 is jz so fake, wen u wana look back at dat wish oso cant found ad. at least SMS wil stay in fon 4ever. card is jz a little bit outdated, n i seldom waste money on bday cards. a card wif a printed pic on the cover can coz more den rm10! WTF, its jz a few papers dat jz a little bit thicker den A4 oOo

     i cant rily rmb most things btween us without my diary, but i sure rmb dat we can chat whole day jz wif a STARpaper :D wen we were young, erithing was so simple. go skul, sit 2gether, talk nonstop, divide the maths homework n exchange answer b4 bac home.

     u were my bestfren, once. bcoz of dat i never wanted ani changes dat wil break our frenship. but things changed, we din talk for a year in F4. if i got the chance 2 bac 2 my past, i rily wana go bac to F3, where many of my life turning points happen bac den. n U, is 1 of dos ppl dat i wana keep in my life. u said i was heartless, but bac den; i'm jz a young young boy dat duno wut is Love...

     i rily happy wen u SMS me on my bday, means dat at least u didnt delete my fon no. i'll b waiting for the day we can look at each other eyes once more, n say Hello...

     

All Over Again :S

     I going 2 my tutorial claz on Thursday morning, trying 2 rewind wen was my last tutorial session, n i cant even  get a clue! luckily i'm going 2 dis 1 coz the attendance will be recorded until week 12! if i skip 2day session den i'll b done, bar n busted! thanks for 2 kind persons dat fetch me go n bac respectively laa, i noe my house is abit far apart frm urs...

     the surprise package on my early morning is the generation of 1 potentially very explosive gossip! i rily cant understand y u keep creating all dis speculation targeting me, or mayb u'r targeting her? my hyperactive behaviours rily concern u alot? or u jz damn hate her so dat wen possible u'r trying 2 blackmail her? or u jz curious?

     i'm not going 2 speculate wut u'r intended but i'm jz gonna say dat i'm not single now n she's stil waiting for her Mr Right, can u pls dun create another mess after we jz started 2 settling down wif wut u've done last year?! mayb u dun think so, but a boy n a girl can stil b pure fren, i like her as a fren n i liked other ppl too, BUT i rily dun like u, pls dun make me hate u can?

     I'm going 2 write obvious enuf so if n wen u read dis post, u can b damn sure i was talking abt u! so, y i was taking dat watch??? its jz a watch dat i saw accidentally n i liked it coz its FOSSIL, did u noe i happen 2 hav sum interest in watches too? so i ask her 2 tk it down n she does, i spending time taking photo of it coz i rily hav nothing 2 do. it can b happen btween me n ani other gal, or she wif ani other guy, or mayb not. n its definitely a bday present since she jz past her bday recently, i dun even bother 2 ask who gv her, jz like last time... y u MUST find out who gv her ler? its none of my business since dis happen between u n her, but u rily very annoying sumtimes!

     a pretty girl may not be loved bcoz of her looks, vice versa; u r not as welcomed as other ppl not bcoz u'r not look as nice, did u think b4 its bcoz of ur attitude n personality? eriting happen n coz by certain reasons, sumtime wen we look bac close enuf, den we'll noe wut is the turning point dat coz wut had happen. if not bcoz of wut a mess u had created last time, i'm sure me n her wont b as fren, at dat moment we even decided 2 dont b as fren jz 2 avoid becoming ur topics of discussion wif all ur frens!

     pls jz let us hav peace in dis hactic period dat full of thesis preparation n exams! for the victim, i noe i've been irritating ever since but i didnt want dis 2 happen too, sorry :( i'm sure u hav noe me well enuf 2 forgive me, again =)

 

Inner beauty =)

     yday was my graduation photoshoot session, saw many of my female cozmates wear gorgeously n dats the 1st time most of dem actuali show their pretty sides! it is rily unexpected, jz like wen i met my 2ndary skulmates last time, most of dem rily looks good n hav alot of followers on Facebook, jz bcoz dey r short hair during dat time dats y i din realised many of dem r rily prettyy!!!

     a good look is like a recommendation letter, ur boss will look at u 1st n u hav an advantage at the starting line, but wut matter most is ur true quality, can u last dat long on the run n hav wut it takes 2 reach the finishing line? we can c on Facebook dat many lenglui get break off frequently, dis may b due 2 the lack of inner beauty, dey hav the look 2 attract guys initially but den dey din hav aniting 2 hold on 2 their bf soon after.

     i hav gone thru the period of boy, teenage, n now a young man, the guys point of view is never change, we wil look for the beautiful lady but not necessary date dem out. if i am boring, i SMS oso will scroll thru my contact n look 4 lenglui 2 chat laa, but it is pointless coz we wont be seeing the other person in SMS. summore sum ppl rily din hav much life experience n hence cant provide ani topic or advice wen u nid it.

     i NEVER fall in love wif sumbody dat i noe 4 a short time, or not noe dem close n thru enuf. for me, i categorize ppl in 3 grup.
1: 1st image n experience ad not nice, later on stil not nice, very hi-bye fren.
2: 1st image very good, later on stil good, after 2 years or so not so good, chat fren.
3: 1st image very good, after years stil very good. bestfren, dis is the grup of ppl dat i wil date if i wan 2 hav a relationship.

     eri1 hav their own weakness, but i wont fall in love wif gals dat:
1: not active, geek gal, no common sense, like 2 compare (result, cloth or etc) wif other ppl.
2: like 2 manipulate ppl 4 their own interest. selfish n intolerance.
3: act like sumbody dey r not, i hate ppl dat lie or act innocent, its lame, not cute!
4: not playful, i alwiz hav preference 2 funny odd girl XD
5: too poor n too rich, if too poor lifestyle ad very hard 2 adjust, very hard 2 go dating 1 wor, later go expensiv place she complain waste money, or eriting oso guy pay all... too rich is not a bad thing 4 gals, jz dat guys wil feel inferior.

althou my heart is oredi fully utilized n no more space 4 other ppl, gotta say my course rily has alot nice ladies dat i wil like, but all were taken :( sad ToT

祝你幸福快乐！

     四年后，你告诉我有男朋友了，我也不知道那个不爽从哪里来，跟你也没有说发展到那里~~可能是这样的吧，就算自己有了另一半，看到别人有也会不喜欢。

     我是真的祝福你，但我觉得你跟他也不会很久罢了啦！阿哈哈。还记得之前你还会问我是不是还跟“她”在一起，还问到为什么喜欢她酱久~~~

     爱这个东西也不是说拍拖很多次就会搞得懂，在戏里看到一句话：你会对一个人好，要么他对你有利用价值，不然就是你爱上了她，怕他受伤害，所以要疼爱她，保护他。其实第一句太现实了，有时人与人，应该还会存在一些真感情与友情吧？

     电话里满满的信息，也不见得我会爱上这么多人~~~瓜。虽然有时是有自恋了一点，但别人出乎意料的对我好时，我是不会觉得那个人对我有什么不妥，如果有，也要当没有咯。其实男生会对很多女生好，但女生天生会比较小气，很难会对很多男生好，所以当一个女生关心一个男生，多数就会出事咯。

     This means war说过u can love 2 ppl at the same time but u'r definitely kenot FALL IN LOVE wif 2 person at the same time. 我觉得人一生中会遇到很多自己会爱上的人，也会有很多人会爱上自己（太差就没救啦！！！），但是就要先到先得咯，贪新忘旧到最后还不是一场空？

     就算是一只没有脚的小鸟，飞到累了，也是需要一个地方歇歇的。所以就没说为什么这个为什么那个的啦，现在你就去看看这个世界，是不是有个小鸟比我好咯？哈哈

Timing!

     time is more den gold if not equal 2 it. we can buy gold anitime but we certainly kenot buy time. so timing is 1 of the most important thing 2 learn 2 be a successful living organism. as we all noe, plant carry out photosynthesis at morning, wen sunlight is present, dey certainly wont work at night.

     as for a successful human, we nid 2 do the right thing at the right time, even if we do the wrong thing at the right time, the wrong thing may not b dat wrong compare 2 doing the right thing at the wrong time... all right, its confusing.

     all i wana said is dat pls grab ur chance wen the chance present itself in front of, coz wen it get away, u may not had chase it no matter how hard u try. i keep on asking ppl 2 go our science faculty prom nite coz its my 1st n last in UTAR, i hope all of my cozmate can go so dat we can at least tk a better photos wif eribody wearing smart n nice, u certainly kenot c most of the BT gals wearing skirts apart frm presentation, n i wont consider a formal skirts as smart n nice...

     der r at least 8 ppl who wil miss out the prom nite bcoz of their bad n slow decision making, i realised many ppl make a decision frm the choice of majority, dey wait so long 2 say yes, n den 600 tickets can jz sold off jz lk dat, 600 chances n dey din get it.

     mayb dey wil blame me, but i certainly feel no guilt. 1 way 2 force ppl indirectly is told dem all the others has joined, jz left dem 2 confirm, even so stil hav a few dat wait until the very very last minute... nvm, we stil hav 33 lucky cozmates plus a few xtra dat buy demself, c u all wearing handsomely n sexy. till den XD

small matters...

     small matters do matter wen dey add up 2 bcum a large sum of small matters! many ppl told me abt dis, so i had try 2 change my attitude n style of handling matters. attitude is very hard 2 change, so we can at least change the style wen we handling sum small matters.

     small matters must b handling wif careful measure as big matters coz if not, sikit sikit boleh menjadi bukit. jz hav a chat wif a fren, we noe each other for 3 years but i tot he actuali dislike me, coz he always complaint dat i play too rough in futsal. suddenly hav a chat wif me over fball n eventually futsal. futsal is stil a matter dat invlove many ppl, so gossip n complaint is abundant.

     for me, futsal had bcame a small matter bcoz i hav won wut i wanted in my UTAR career, a medal in sport carnival. so y'all seldom c i hav ani post regarding sport matter in my blog. 4 sum ppl, dis game is stil important, i stil care, but only not as much.

     dis world is rily small, many small matters i tot only discover by my own teammantes oso can b seen by outsiders, n see it quite thru n true. sorry guys, i cant help wen u all asking 4 my help, i oso felt ur pain but if aniting jz find captain, i think he wil figure it out.

     now i wil relate all dis thing to a world outside futsal. for me, a better futsal player is not equal 2 a better person. if a top player is so arrogant dat he ignore all others, 4 me he is nobody. i've met a senior during intern, 4 me, wut he do in the lab is rily easy, i wonder y he would tot himself so important 4 the company. at the end he left the company b4 i do, dats life ppl!

     the world wont stop bcoz of 1 person, in fact if human extinct frm Earth mayb the world wil bcum a much better place. bcoz human is jz selfish n arrogance as a species. alwiz a level higher den all others. but frm the eye of more developed alien, we're jz as clever as ants, working non-stop 2 chase fame n glory!

     i oni expect wut frm others for wut i expect frm myself. wen i treat a person nicely, wut i hope is jz dey wont treat me badly, y'all no nid treat me as nice. i noe i've been arrogance 2wards strangers, i try 2 change, but try doesnt mean will XD i'm rily happy 4 the compliments, at least wen u noe me longer n better u hav a good perception on me. dis kinda small matters make me happy out of nothing, thanks bro.

天使的秘密。

     我总觉得世界有个地址，存在一个名字，守护我的天使。我总觉得心里有个房子，住了一个秘密，永远不会消失。

     传说中天使是上帝的仆人，他们拥有各自不同的超能力，可以在天堂与人间徘回，天使是很神圣，很伟大的。所以人类都希望死了，可以上天堂，成为一个天使。但是上帝不准天使谈恋爱，是人类没有注意到的一个条件。在人们的生活里，爱一个人是一件很普遍的事情，对天使来说，这却是一件永远的秘密。

     天使与人类本身的差距太遥远，就算彼此相爱，也不可以在一起。人类不可以要天使堕落凡间这么自私，所以就慢慢的把这个秘密，永藏心底。但是这个秘密，就算永远不再提起，它，是不是就会慢慢地消失呢？都已经这么多年了，看来是不会。

     其实天使留在凡间，看着人类和其他人在一起，心里流的，是血，还是泪？天使的秘密，又有谁能理解呢？

     人类是否要等到上天堂的那一天，才能跟天使在一起？

Flirtationship.

     i saw dis word on FB, flirtationship is use 2 describe a relationship beyond frenship while stil havent reach a relationship status. dis is wut i enjoy the most wen i'm stil a single!!! while we can have a flirtationship or as much as u can wen u r single, dos dat r in a relationship r morally forbidden 2 do so.

     flirtationship is lk a process 2wards building a more intimate n interdependent relationship, so wen a person dats in a relationship r having flirtationship at the same time, its abit lk cheating on ur other half. managing interpersonal relationship is hard 2 master but at the same time it is stil important in our future, coz at work a person wif low ability but high socializing skill wif ppl r more preferable by colleague n employer.

     recently i hav a few chat session wif a fren dat i jz add in FB, her behaviour r highly suspicious n indicate dat she's probably wont b a very good or loyal gf, or at least she din love her bf very much. 1 time i post a comment on her status, i rily dun understand y she wil reply me in chatbox, coz usually we reply status's comment bac at the status column. mayb her bf get jealous easily n she jz wana avoid conflict wif her bf, so she reply me in chatbox?

     another time she was alone in home, den suddenly tell me she's very hungry, summore said duwan eat alone. i dun wana (over confident n ting the world revolve around me) but i did feel dat dis gal is not as good as she looks. during my time in UTAR i've been thru n saw many cases of gal wif bf jz bcoz dey needed 1, not bcoz of dey love dem.

     the advantage of flirtationship is dat during dat time the ppl involve can rily get 2 noe each other more n try 2 understand wut he or she rily intended. althou we stil can end a relationship wen we discover sumting was terribly wrong.

     the theory of flirtationship is dat we can actuali treat the other person as our partner but its not official, u can withdrawn frm it anitime, but its suck wen the other half r oso flirting wif others at the same time. My advice: go flirt wif another person, its fair enough!

     gals r rily hard 2 understand, wen dey say duwan or nevermind, actuali dey wan it but dey said no jz 2 c ur reaction, however apologize n lots n lots of praise r alwiz welcome!!!

How 2 determine ur importance for a guy/gal:
1. the amount of time dey willing 2 spend for u.
2. topics of conversation (degree of disclosure)
3. the respond dey give frm wut u said (if dey tk ur words seriously, u hv a chance)
4. physical interaction (only apply on gals, coz guys sure wil touch eri gal if dey got the chances XD)
5. if dey do sumting dey dun lk jz bcoz of u, den congratulates! u r half way thru.

ps: as degree of importance may correlate 2 ur success in a flirtationship, but der is alwiz sum1 better for u n for her, however the forest is big enuf 4 eribody, try harder nxt time if u fail, practice make perfect.

Moment of Madness.

     On saturday, i'm going bac hometown frm kampar. its jz dos weekend day dat full of traffic on highway, nid 4 hours plus 2 reach Butterworth bus stop. b4 dat got a lenglui ask me izit our bus bac Penang has changed? wah she rily not bad XD

     I reach BW so sleepy n tired, but the special case of the day happen here. wen i saw my bus Rapid 601 has reached the bus stop, jz stand near it n wait 4 the driver lor... wut i saw next a couple of Malays plus a dozen of standing malays bullying a chinese ah pek!!! many foreign workers at the scene tot its funny, dey all laugh n discuss abt it, while sum malays gal show a dislike face, but i din expect dem 2 do aniting.

     the uncle got abit retarded i think, den his knees bend ad kenot walk properly as well, the Malays boy summore learn how his walk 2 tease him, den 1 of dem wif a walkie-talkie pointed his body several times. wen the uncle wana beat dem wif his umbrella dey run away.

     i am very angry but stand der do nothing at the moment, im thinking: der is so many malays, summore the 1 wif walkie talkie sure is working der, if dey rily wana beat me, no chinese at the scene wil help me for sure. coz ders no chinese helping dat uncle at the 1st place!!! an indian security standing der trying 2 do sumting, but as we all noe now the Indians is more minority den the Indonesian :(

     while i struggling wif my inner self, a younger Malay boy (2ndary skul) grab the uncle umbrella, n kick it further away frm him! den the uncle has 2 chase the umbrella bac! dis moment i rily adrenaline rush, i go confront the malay boy telling him: adik, cukup dah! cukup! i ting he's shock n stand der looking at me, wen the uncle run 2wards me i think he wana beat dat boy, summore i hav 2 stop him in case i die in the middle of a fight. he took his umbrella n i accompany him bac 2 his seat. the malays go away, luckily the watching malays r not 1 of dem, afterwards a Malay driver nearby come n chat wif the uncle. dat time oni i walk away bac 2 wait my bus.

     after all dat 5 minutes at most, i'm nervous til max. i kept looking 360 degree all the time, coz i'm sked the Malays wil ask their gang 2 come. summore i stil hv 2 act talking on a fon while looking around, trying 2 cheat dem dat i oso gathering ppl. luckily nothing happen afterwards.

     frm 2day incident, i've done the bravest n most noble thing in my 23 years of life. i rily upset wif the Malay uncles der bcoz dey all senior, dey can stop the younger worker der, althou dey might b frm diff bus company. i was most disappointed wif the remaining Chinese der, sum r older den me, sum r not alone, but nobody offered help. finally nid sumbody lk me 2 go help, so thin n having 2 bags, i'm sure 2 lose a 2 versus 1 fight.

     ders a reason y chinese alwiz kena bully, either by citizen or by Government, bcoz all of us r so afraid, we wont fight bac unless the case is directly related 2 us. wen we saw other place's chinese temple is force 2 destroy 4 sum useless projects, the majority din voice out, dun even mention fight bac.

     after 2day incident, i got flashes of tot dat 1 day i shud involve in politics, at least i can help more ppl, summore 1 day can b as famous as Lim Guan Eng. but he gets into jail twice! dats rily a short flash n now i'm completely bac 2 my Money is everything belief.

patience is a virtue but coward is not.

They just won't admit they stalk :D

     sumtime it is funny dat ppl do likes 2 deny sumting dat eri1 oredi noe is true. mayb not eri1, but surely wen i noe of it den a person try 2 deny in front of me, the doubt face i show n den the face they show is rily funny!

     recently i was jz random chat wif a fren, i'm asking izit u stalk me in Facebook? if a person dat is innocent wil jz cincai gv a respond laa, but if u gv alot of reasons lk y my post appear on wall den my comments jz show is exaclty not acceptable lor~~~ :p if u can c my post here (which i ting u wont, gua~) now Facebook wil oni show the latest 2 comments on the bottom of the status update, but oni wen the status has at least 4 comments. if a status oni hav 3 comments den FB will show all the 3 comments.

     i duwan speculate the reasons u deny it, mayb u jz a shy stalker dat duwan ppl find out XD but i oso got follow ur updates de, in dis case i'm not a stalker coz 2 b a stalker means dat u r following a person updates on FB / etc but the person dat u keep a tab on doesnt noe it, or u purposely kept it is as a secret! Now dats a stalker!!!

     i hav a few frens dat like 2 stalk on ppl, mayb dey jz curious or very 8. alwiz get alot of info frm dem, i'm glad 2 hav dis kinda fren sumtime bcoz dey provide us wif alot of entertainment, but in case u hav sumting dat shud hav keep as a secret den u'r pretty done wen get alongside dis ppl.

     in the world of internet ders actuali no way u can hide urself, except u din create ani acc on social network.  sumtime stalking on ppl is very exciting, finding out their little secrets by observing their activity on Internet, ok! i admit i stalk on ppl, how abt u???