i'm never a person dat wil lose control of myself (most of the time), dos who knew me long enuf wil realised i'll even control all the things evolve around me, eriting bout my hostel, to my own life details.
wont lose control now in futsal court wen opponents r purposely hitting me wif dirty tricks, even wen losing alot of money wen betting on football, but 2day i did surprised even myself. after a good sleep n woke up, thinking wtf am i doing jz now. seldom cross the lines since i can rmb, sumtime ppl get loss along the way. i'm tired, mayb reluctant 2 say goodbye wen i c dat time flows away n May is jz around the corner.
try 2 explain 2 myself but the harder i try the harder it gets. i'll draw the line here, never cross it n try my best 2 get along wif it. ppl wont 4get even if dey 4giv, rily sorry wen i lose control n seriously hurt sumbody. hope wont b too late 2 apologize...
2012年4月18日星期三
2012年4月16日星期一
GOODBYE!!!
Goodbye my love, my 2nd wife. my darling Myvi. i watch ur tail pass by wen i close the door at hostel, sad dat i've loss u. but life like dis, no change no game. so b it, no money no choice, Saga jiu Saga laa. At least now its look far better den my 1st wife the very 1st generation Saga.
Goodbye my money :( wonder if i can afford a new Myvi if my MAS share dun fall frm 1.79 to 1.3! bad decision making coz u alot especially its a financial 1. was planning 2 buy RAPID n MAS at 1.8 initially but throw all the money 2 MAS at the end, so fxxking sad wen c RAPID now stands at 2.45! wtf 1 loss 500 1 win 650, if i stick 2 my 1st thought den i'll stil earn a small portion.
Goodbye my fren. seriously dun think we'll keep in touch (except Facebook) since we jz noe each other 4 such a short period. i oni left a few fren frm 2ndary skul dat alwiz contact, n i stay der for 7 years! dun think a 3 years frenship can deep until where. but i rily grateful i hv chance 2 meet sum fabulous ppl in such limited contact, i alwiz skip my claz n den we oni hv very few claz in a week, so its rily hard 2 make sum close frens.
Wen a person is treating u good frm the bottom of their hearts, u can actuali felt it deeply n sumtime its touching. i dun care wut other ppl comments, i jz evaluate a person frm my own perspective, interpersonal communication n past experiences. the only way u can find out a person is treating u good is bcoz dey wana do it or jz dey nid 2 do it is by Time, dun alwiz misjudge ppl bcoz even if dey treat u nicely jz bcoz dey nid 2.
i alwiz like dos ppl dat r not selfish, i'm fortunate 2 hv known a few here in Kampar, its rily a boring place apart frm interesting ppl. rily happy wen sum1 offer help more den wut u ask 4, n rily keep u in mind n inform ASAP wen sumting is wrong. u probably wont b seeing dis but i gonna say u r 1 of the best i've met, surely wil keep in touch coz i'm gonna stay n work in Penang.
its week 14 n Wednesday is the last official day of study. study week n finals next. Its been a great experience coming 2 University, once in a lifetime n great fellas all along the way :D
2012年4月11日星期三
Change of Plan!!!
never wonder wut 2 do after graduate coz i plan 2 stay unemployed until i cm bac frm Bali on July, after dat oni work. hav a 2 months holiday after 16 years of official education doesnt sound lazy ok???
dis magnificent, brilliant n exciting plan is all but ruin bcoz my bro gonna tk the oni car at my hometown away, dey got 2 cars for 3 drivers y dats not enuf??? i'm carless, jobless n FUNless!!! mom is going 2 buy a new car using my name, means dat i hav 2 pay for the loans laa :S WTF y alwiz is younger 1 let the old 1 get the sweets, althou i think we shud help sumbody dat nid it but we cant alwiz help a person if he is not helping himself!
at the end i noe dis is jz a notification not a question, i didnt make ani complain, jz search for related info. a new Saga FLX executive auto cost 45K, a same class Myvi 47K, if u wana pay for a period of 7 years den eri month u'r deducted rm450-500 excluded fuels n other "surprise" expenses.
so? i'm going 2 start applying jobs, i cant afford 2 sit eriday in my dad coffee shop n let eri1 said i din do aniting but my parents buy me a car. dats humiliating! n ppl in a coffee shop can rily come out wif aniting u can n cannot imagine.
wif car loan on the horizon, NO, on the shoreline, I cannot afford a new smartfon :( new LEGO ToT n i kenot go Bali wif more cash as i 1st planned. so, i can say Life fuck me up dis time!
dis magnificent, brilliant n exciting plan is all but ruin bcoz my bro gonna tk the oni car at my hometown away, dey got 2 cars for 3 drivers y dats not enuf??? i'm carless, jobless n FUNless!!! mom is going 2 buy a new car using my name, means dat i hav 2 pay for the loans laa :S WTF y alwiz is younger 1 let the old 1 get the sweets, althou i think we shud help sumbody dat nid it but we cant alwiz help a person if he is not helping himself!
at the end i noe dis is jz a notification not a question, i didnt make ani complain, jz search for related info. a new Saga FLX executive auto cost 45K, a same class Myvi 47K, if u wana pay for a period of 7 years den eri month u'r deducted rm450-500 excluded fuels n other "surprise" expenses.
so? i'm going 2 start applying jobs, i cant afford 2 sit eriday in my dad coffee shop n let eri1 said i din do aniting but my parents buy me a car. dats humiliating! n ppl in a coffee shop can rily come out wif aniting u can n cannot imagine.
wif car loan on the horizon, NO, on the shoreline, I cannot afford a new smartfon :( new LEGO ToT n i kenot go Bali wif more cash as i 1st planned. so, i can say Life fuck me up dis time!
2012年4月10日星期二
Fall For You!
if u dunno whether anot u'r falling in love or like sumbody, pls go 2 listen love songs. end up u will thinking of sum1 again n again, in case ur heart is a little bigger, u wil thinking of a few ppl many times.
den, go 2 ur msg inbox, search the oldest msg dat u kept 4 so long, n think. think the reason dat y u din delete it after so long. y u wana read the msg over n over again.
wif smartfon unlimited SMS storage, we can save many ppl SMS if we wanted to, last time cheap fon must delete n den jz keep the msg u treasure the most. if my Motorola din spoilt, i cant imagine my msg can date bac how many years.
alwiz falling into a dilemma situation, n dats bcoz i fall for you.
den, go 2 ur msg inbox, search the oldest msg dat u kept 4 so long, n think. think the reason dat y u din delete it after so long. y u wana read the msg over n over again.
wif smartfon unlimited SMS storage, we can save many ppl SMS if we wanted to, last time cheap fon must delete n den jz keep the msg u treasure the most. if my Motorola din spoilt, i cant imagine my msg can date bac how many years.
alwiz falling into a dilemma situation, n dats bcoz i fall for you.
2012年4月7日星期六
Your life is not your life :(
its often said: dat no matter whats the truth, ppl c wut dey wanted 2 c, sum ppl may tk a step bac n find out, dey r looking at the same big picture all along.
i alwiz tot we can actuali control our life no matter wut, bcoz we r the 1 dat make all the decisions. But life caught up 2 u sumtimes, n wut u gonna do is not ur choice animore.
1st. i gonna start wif study. wen we were young, most of us r good in sum subjects while bad in others, so we choose 2 study the courses we like the most for our tertiary study. dos dat r good in eriting doesnt mean dey like all the subjects, its jz bcoz dey work hard 4 it no matter dey like it or not. den, dis ppl done well in their study life n get a good job n salary.
2nd. wen go 2 work, we kenot choose the jobs dat we like coz its not rewarding enuf sumtimes. so? we hav 2 settle for an acceptable job dat pays us well. sum ppl do hates wut dey r doing, but dey nid the money so much, no choice.
3rd n finally: i noe many ppl (especially girls) r having a preference on who dey love. for instance, their couple must b tall, or rich, or noe musics. many guys wil date a gal even if dey dun love her, (or dey think dey love her oredi), i wonder how can we love sum1 wen we dun even noe her well? i wil oni date the gal dat i love, wen i love sumbody, i rily cant let her go easily. der r so many couples out der, single 4 jz a month or so den very very love their new "wife or husband" the next month ad...
now, at least we stil can control who we love right? NO! bcoz the other half jz too good 4 u. or mayb he or she is already taken, u cant go grab dem do u?
now we cant control so many important decisions in our life, wut can we do den? i choose 2 b HAPPY! i oni show my pessimists side 2 very few frens. the 1st week of April is passing so quick, dat i dun even hav enuf time 2 sad. we r so busy i think we dun hav time 4 each other ad, den jz graduate lidat :(
i alwiz tot we can actuali control our life no matter wut, bcoz we r the 1 dat make all the decisions. But life caught up 2 u sumtimes, n wut u gonna do is not ur choice animore.
1st. i gonna start wif study. wen we were young, most of us r good in sum subjects while bad in others, so we choose 2 study the courses we like the most for our tertiary study. dos dat r good in eriting doesnt mean dey like all the subjects, its jz bcoz dey work hard 4 it no matter dey like it or not. den, dis ppl done well in their study life n get a good job n salary.
2nd. wen go 2 work, we kenot choose the jobs dat we like coz its not rewarding enuf sumtimes. so? we hav 2 settle for an acceptable job dat pays us well. sum ppl do hates wut dey r doing, but dey nid the money so much, no choice.
3rd n finally: i noe many ppl (especially girls) r having a preference on who dey love. for instance, their couple must b tall, or rich, or noe musics. many guys wil date a gal even if dey dun love her, (or dey think dey love her oredi), i wonder how can we love sum1 wen we dun even noe her well? i wil oni date the gal dat i love, wen i love sumbody, i rily cant let her go easily. der r so many couples out der, single 4 jz a month or so den very very love their new "wife or husband" the next month ad...
now, at least we stil can control who we love right? NO! bcoz the other half jz too good 4 u. or mayb he or she is already taken, u cant go grab dem do u?
now we cant control so many important decisions in our life, wut can we do den? i choose 2 b HAPPY! i oni show my pessimists side 2 very few frens. the 1st week of April is passing so quick, dat i dun even hav enuf time 2 sad. we r so busy i think we dun hav time 4 each other ad, den jz graduate lidat :(
2012年4月4日星期三
十周年的友情。
不知不觉，当年13岁傻傻的走进钟灵，现在也要傻傻的大学毕业了。十年，人生一百岁，也只有十个十年。10-20，20-30岁，应该就是人生最宝贵的两个十年吧？
忘了那天，你告诉我我们认识了十年咯，真的不容易，十年后还在联络的，也真的没几个了。今天考试考了一半，电话就响个不停，听ringtone就是apps的msg咯，其实我还有一题不是很会做，但还是马上交了，还是第一个叻。过后去拿成绩，原来算法跟我所告知的不一样咯！低到我都有点不能接受！
有没有这么一个人，当他什么都不需要做，就只是随便来叫你去死，你的心情就会好起来？其实，友情也许比爱情来的更天长地久。所以我才不会喜欢我身边的朋友，本来就好好开开心心的，不需要搞酱多东西来破坏它。
我真的很好奇，一个人拍拖了，是不是就不可以有异性朋友？很多事情男生是不会告诉男生，那么就只能告诉女朋友？两个人一直按信息就是有路？这些是那些吃不到葡萄的人说的吧？
人的一生中，会有多少个十年的朋友？会有谁真心对你好，就算不拥有你，也无所谓。十年里你遇到了多少个朋友？又有多少个还在你身边？有很多事我已经不能再告诉你，所以只能告诉最新的好朋友咯，但我想要告诉你，人总是会贪新忘旧，但那个人不会是我。
忘了那天，你告诉我我们认识了十年咯，真的不容易，十年后还在联络的，也真的没几个了。今天考试考了一半，电话就响个不停，听ringtone就是apps的msg咯，其实我还有一题不是很会做，但还是马上交了，还是第一个叻。过后去拿成绩，原来算法跟我所告知的不一样咯！低到我都有点不能接受！
有没有这么一个人，当他什么都不需要做，就只是随便来叫你去死，你的心情就会好起来？其实，友情也许比爱情来的更天长地久。所以我才不会喜欢我身边的朋友，本来就好好开开心心的，不需要搞酱多东西来破坏它。
我真的很好奇，一个人拍拖了，是不是就不可以有异性朋友？很多事情男生是不会告诉男生，那么就只能告诉女朋友？两个人一直按信息就是有路？这些是那些吃不到葡萄的人说的吧？
人的一生中，会有多少个十年的朋友？会有谁真心对你好，就算不拥有你，也无所谓。十年里你遇到了多少个朋友？又有多少个还在你身边？有很多事我已经不能再告诉你，所以只能告诉最新的好朋友咯，但我想要告诉你，人总是会贪新忘旧，但那个人不会是我。
2012年4月2日星期一
Friends & Family.
its week 12 oredi n nxt week i'll gonna present on my FYP results n all dat tests n random things make me VERY frustrated wif my life. I jz duwan 2 graduate, althou work can earn abt rm2k nowadays (which is not much if u hav commitment lk car n insurance). eriday i can sleep until noon, skip all my claz except phytochem (dat crazy woman recognize our face n her test is unpredictable). but stil, i hav my pocket money plus a portion of my PTPTN 2 live considerably comfortable in UTAR.
wut makes me study hard (consider hard laa :D) is my promise 2 my mom, she's the 1 dat i rily care at the moment, n the reason i duwan go KL is oso bcoz of her. althou my dad oso contribute alot but in our family of masculine dominant (ok its Da Nan Ren culture) the effort of my mom is 1 true character of our family! never say die n stil laugh during the hardest moments. i'm too young 2 rmb but my eldest bro said our family had gone thru some harsh period during Malaysia recession at the end of 1990s.
i make some very rich frens during 2ndary skul but i NEVER jealous of dem, sum of dem rily is rich dao~~~ got drivers n change fons few times a year. if we rily wana compare ourselves wif others, der is alwiz ppl dat r more pitiful den us, wut we must hav as a person is integrity n thankful 4 wut we hav. 1 random day, my gf scold me dat bcoz my wallet never run out of money i shud not complain alot, coz she noes many ppl (include herself) dat having more difficulties den i am. n dats wut my parents hav work so hard 2 gv me :(
no matter how much u wanted it, time won't stop. n 1 day (May 7th) we'll b saying goodbye, we may not c each other ever again but i appreciate our times 2gether, guys n gals. i'm a person dat can laugh at u, let u laugh, scold u, n let u scold.
i may not care wut is ur feeling or view abt me, but not bcoz i dun care abt u. its jz bcoz dos who noes me wil understand, while dos who r not wont bliv me. i can fren wif many ppl, i can chat wif alot of ppl on FB, coz i hav many topics (frm wikipedia / msn news). bcoz i alwiz mix wif gals, so sum ppl may misUN me sumtime, i can help a female fren do report, chat abt many things but dat is jz a fren 4 me, luckily dis 1 hav bf so nothing 2 worry. if u wana noe sumting, all u nid 2 do is~~~ ASK ME!
i rily wish 2 go KL wif my housemate, althou we din talk much but he can understand me very well. if ders any rumors he'll ask me directly, n he is alwiz so supportive, mayb same snakes act the same ways! eri ending is jz the start of another new beginning, shall enjoy our last month of University 2 the max buddies!!!
wut makes me study hard (consider hard laa :D) is my promise 2 my mom, she's the 1 dat i rily care at the moment, n the reason i duwan go KL is oso bcoz of her. althou my dad oso contribute alot but in our family of masculine dominant (ok its Da Nan Ren culture) the effort of my mom is 1 true character of our family! never say die n stil laugh during the hardest moments. i'm too young 2 rmb but my eldest bro said our family had gone thru some harsh period during Malaysia recession at the end of 1990s.
i make some very rich frens during 2ndary skul but i NEVER jealous of dem, sum of dem rily is rich dao~~~ got drivers n change fons few times a year. if we rily wana compare ourselves wif others, der is alwiz ppl dat r more pitiful den us, wut we must hav as a person is integrity n thankful 4 wut we hav. 1 random day, my gf scold me dat bcoz my wallet never run out of money i shud not complain alot, coz she noes many ppl (include herself) dat having more difficulties den i am. n dats wut my parents hav work so hard 2 gv me :(
no matter how much u wanted it, time won't stop. n 1 day (May 7th) we'll b saying goodbye, we may not c each other ever again but i appreciate our times 2gether, guys n gals. i'm a person dat can laugh at u, let u laugh, scold u, n let u scold.
i may not care wut is ur feeling or view abt me, but not bcoz i dun care abt u. its jz bcoz dos who noes me wil understand, while dos who r not wont bliv me. i can fren wif many ppl, i can chat wif alot of ppl on FB, coz i hav many topics (frm wikipedia / msn news). bcoz i alwiz mix wif gals, so sum ppl may misUN me sumtime, i can help a female fren do report, chat abt many things but dat is jz a fren 4 me, luckily dis 1 hav bf so nothing 2 worry. if u wana noe sumting, all u nid 2 do is~~~ ASK ME!
i rily wish 2 go KL wif my housemate, althou we din talk much but he can understand me very well. if ders any rumors he'll ask me directly, n he is alwiz so supportive, mayb same snakes act the same ways! eri ending is jz the start of another new beginning, shall enjoy our last month of University 2 the max buddies!!!
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